nothing

i didnt do anything special.

just went to the gym and worked out,
watched some movies,
went out to buy some stuff,
and cooked dinner,
well... thats it.

oh also i played the ukulele... haha

ive been feeling down lately.
i always try to be nice to her.
but i cant.

ive always been wanting to be friendly,
but i just cant.
dont know why im so irritated.

i dont like this feeling.
however i just cant accept what shes doing, her life style.
its really beyond my capacity.

she doesnt eat much,
stays up very late, like untill 3 or 4?,
takes a lot of medicines which i dont know why shes having,
always be on the phone whith some guy whom i dont know,
complains about her job always,
but tends to be willing to work harder than anyone at her workplace.

what forced her to be like that?
i just cant understand.
is this my task to take care of her untill i die?

i know i shouldnt complain about this.
just sometimes, i wanna escape from this world.