I have my own personal journal so this is never where I vent or keep a detailed description of my life's journey. But.

This past week has been excruciatingly difficult for me, more than I ever let on, and more than I'll probably ever fully let on to anyone.

I love being there for other people. Journalism, I believe, is my calling. I would be just (or almost just) as happy living in a tent in Africa caring for malnourished children, or re-building houses in disaster zones, or cleaning up the inner city. But I digress.

I can never fully release on other people. My pain, my grief, my emotions are all extremely private. I don't like to let other people in, because I believe that will add to the grief of the world, it will put more of a burden on people. Everyone has their own pain to manage, I should be able to handle mine.

That being said, that night, in the car, I have never wanted to be able to unload all of my burdens on someone so much. I didn't. But thank you for having Denny's with me, and listening to Swayzak, it was a good substitute to breaking down. :)

P.S. Just sometimes I get this photo thing down pat. ;)

Quite an evocative narrative on your personal life. I too used to be someone who withheld so very much....I kept everything in as well, I was the strong one amongst my people...I was the one who patched things up, who organized, who made everything ok....and then one day....I knew, I had to find a way to vent....because sometimes, no matter how strong you think you are...it always feels so much better to just vent in your own private way....Photography became my venting mechanism....and so I joined PB....I have to say....its been a God send....I still dont unload everything that is on my mind, but....I do let lose, some things that I wouldnt ordinarily let out....and that is ok! I hope your journey here at PB will be just as rewarding as it has been for me! ????? · 2010-12-06: 10:53