Lately I've had a lot of mixed feelings about photoblog and I also feel like Ive been doing a lot of apologising, so this is this last time I'm going to do it:-
I am sorry for not getting around to everyone's blogs of late when you have all continued to leave such wonderful and thoughtful messages for me each time I post.
Truth be told, I knew I was never going to be able to keep up with the amount of effort and time this place was going to demand of me. I did a pretty damn good job for a few months, but now, Im finding it really tough and am having conflicting thoughts about it all. A big part of me loves this community. All the support, all the advice, all the friendships and all the wonderful inspiration it has brought me. But If I'm to be honest, part of me resents it for making me feel so guilty when I don't have the time or inclination to blog. When I just don't have the energy to reply to comments, to visit your latest posts and to leave comments of my own on your photos which deserve to be acknowledged.
Ive thought about closing up my account, but decided against it. Instead I'm just taking the pressure off myself to avoid those guilty feelings. I really need to put the focus back onto taking photos for the enjoyment and
not for the blog.
Please just know, even if i haven't left a comment, more often than not I have still taken a look at your latest entry. Also please know how much your comments continue to mean to me. I am so appreciative of each and every one of them.
So in conclusion to my thesis *snicker*, I really just needed to vent my mixed emotions and I'm not leaving PB, but simply allowing myself to not feel bad about not posting every day.
You can expect to still see me around. Sometimes a lot, sometimes not much at all, ....we'll see.
Andrea
xo
