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ER: Recovery from Eating Disorders is a LONG journey.
2009.07.02
Well, I do think that. Well, Me1 thinks that. Me2 is glad I am in recovery. (And I am starting to believe I might be a bit of a Schizo) *Picture doesnt belong to me
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Well, I do think that. Well, Me1 thinks that. Me2 is glad I am in recovery. (And I am starting to believe I might be a bit of a Schizo) *Picture doesnt belong to me
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Thats like 15 pounds from my lowest.
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Thats like 15 pounds from my lowest.
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Thats like 10 pounds lighter than my highest. My highest being now. Forgive me, I dont really own a camera.
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Thats like 10 pounds lighter than my highest. My highest being now. Forgive me, I dont really own a camera.
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*Picture doesnt belong to me
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*Picture doesnt belong to me
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I spent the whole night last night at the ER. The reason is simple, yet the embarassment is unbearable.
I started my journey towards recovery in december last year. I wasnt emaciated, but I had already dealt serious damage to my body. I was Anorexic, purgative Type. AND DID I PURGE.
Toughts never stop poping up in my head. Toughts about emaciation, toughts about starving, toughts about perfection, toughts about unflexibility....
Yet I've never felt this close to relapse.
I feel utterly unbeautiful and unloved and undesired. I feel lonely as hell and stupid as an empty cocoon.
Reason to spend a night at the ER: Low electrolytes. Can you guess what I did?
Recovery from any disorder is hard! I had trouble with some of that myself earlier this year! It's tough but I bet you'll do great and make it through!... More people are proud of you than you can even imagine... ER SUCKS!
