ALS

What happened today was disappointing. Not that I don't know what to do during simulation. It's just the nerves got the better of me.

Yesterday was superb. I knew the algorithms in and out. This morning I just blanked out. Every step in the algorithm took at least 5 seconds more than I should. Hence for the bradycardia station, I was deemed slow by the examiner.

Second attempt, anaphylaxis. ABCDE then adrenaline. I know that exactly. But when that guy started to become more breathless, I panicked. Put in an oropharyngeal, he gagged. More panicky moments. I ventilated him with the bag.

Examiner says stop right there. Nice. I knew I fucked it up. At the back of my head, I knew it was that ventilation step. I knew I shouldn't be doing that but I guess I just did.

ARGHHHHHH
ANXIETY
ARGHHHHHH
= FUCKING UP EASY SITUATIONS