Project 365 first entry - Endings to make room for new Beginnings

Ok. So I'm starting my Project 365 a little early but I wanted to document this. First of all I wanted to thank all of my friends who have put up with me and my depression for the last two months and my constant posts and talks and crying and everything else that was about my ex. It has been a really difficult break up for me and I am still not over it but I am tired of being sad and I am tired of being the one who is hurt. I need to start realizing that my ex is a selfish, puny little prick and move on. I don't want to hate him. He is still the person who has understood me better than anyone else. It is a shame that we can't be friends but then again, do I want to be friends with someone who only knows how to take and leave nothing but an empty shell behind?

Today I got rid of everything he has ever given me (which, sadly, didn't really amount to much). I threw out all of the letters and pictures and the few gifts he gave me. I wanted to burn it all but as you can see in the photo I didn't have anywhere safe to burn that much paper (letters and emails and cards and such) so I just set fire to the two most hurtful things he's said to me.

I am going to try and start over. Again. I feel like that is all I have done in my life. I hope this year brings me happiness and something that won't end in heartache. I hope that I manage to make better decisions that I won't end up regretting.

This should be my last post ever about my ex. I am done with him and I want to start the new year without him lingering in my thoughts. I told him that there would always be a part of me still in love with him and waiting. That is true right now but by the end of next year I hope I no longer feel that way.