First rehearsal for Midsummer and some random artwork

Today was the first rehearsal for A Midsummer Night's Dream. Not much to report as of yet, we just read through the script. Tomorrow we go to the park and show the director that we can "project." If I remember to take my camera I hope to get some nice pictures.

There was this really weird piece of artwork on the corner. It's a mechanical arm with a large sensor and it will follow you if you walk by it. I don't really get it but it's fun to watch.

Anyway, I'm sorry I'm so behind on looking at everyone's posts, I will get to it this weekend, I think. I've been really exhausted this week because I haven't been sleeping too well (it was super hot the last few days and we don't really use the AC) and have been out late as well so that doesn't help either.

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You don't need to read after this, I just needed to vent. Thanks.
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I just realized that it's going to be May tomorrow. Where has the time gone? It's been 5 months since my ex broke up with me. I still miss him a lot. I wish so much that we could at least be friends but that just isn't enough for me. It's strange, not knowing how he's doing or what's been going on in his life.

And what have I been doing with myself for four months? What happened to my new year's resolutions? I think it's time to stop and take a good look at what I've been doing with my time. I've let my sadness take over so much of my life, and for what? A stupid jerk who cheats on me and the girl he's dating on the side at the same time? He is so emotionally and mentally screwed up and yet I still I have trouble seeing him as the self-centered ass**** that he is. What the heck is wrong with me?! I hate him and I love him. I hope the hate takes over soon because he doesn't deserve love from me.

Sorry. I don't know what I'm thinking or feeling right now. I just know that another four months of my life have passed and I again have not really accomplished anything. I turned off the comments because I just want to vent. Just feeling a lot of frustration right now.