The past two weeks or ever since the class have started i've been struggling big time!! and i cant even express the disappontment and frustration that i'm feeling... I cant figure out whats wrong with me!!! or am i really just stupid!!! or is it really true that ignorance is a bliss.. or i have just figured out what others are searching, and that is happiness. Eitherway, i'm really FRUSTRATED right now, and i;m desperate to redeem myself from this mess.
Why am i frustrated??? because i cant seem to pass a single quiz!!! and that i'm always the lowest scorer of all time and i dont like it!! and i miss my friends, the atmosphere/ aura that they exude.. it's like everything is so different and something is missing and everyone is new though i also get along with them and i'm relly trying my best to get along with them because i know God has His reasons why i met this people, and they're good ones too. I'm so upset to myself and my situation that instead of seeing good results it just gets worst!!! I'm starting to really fall apart if not for my friends and family and my dreams. I know after several months and when i look back on this entry it's all going to be different. I just want to let things out that i'm not ok... i really am not. i just want to do well and graduate and continue with my life but college seems to really like me and continues to challenge my self-esteem. Sometimes life is just hard, but i'm hopeful and i have this faith in my heart that it will get better and i just need to take all of it as of now and things will go smoothly in the future. I know in my heart that i really want this and that now things are so messed up but it will get fixed.