may 10

the way to the ocean...........some minutes along the street and across a little plaza and there is the beach.
in the past city life was horror for me. I´m highly psychic and the filters that separate inside and outside for most people don´t work for me. Everything happens inside of me or i happen inside of everything and therefore impressions of any kind get overwhelming quickly.

this is the view out of our kitchen window. The patio in the centre of the house contains the elevator and the stairs. It´s very futuristic and i love it. I also love to hear all the children´s voices when they walk up and down the stairs, when they come home from school and talk to their friends, when they argue with their parents. The patio is like a resonance body and transmits every sound.

to get to our flat we have to use this little bridge from the elevator and the stairs to our side of the building. For me this building feels like a ship. I love the intelligence and cleverness, but also the creativity of the architecture.

Esther startedf a new project that she calls: "Urban landscapes". She is fascinated by all the new possibilities she has.
I was very worried ( and so was she) how she would manage all the stress of a move, both healthwise and emotionally.
She was tired, yes, but besides that everything went smoothly and we are very happy in our little space ship at the ocean.

this is our living- eating- working-resting-tv-music-studio.
We took the large garden table and the chairs, because we want to do art projects and need a table that is robust and large.
I like it in contrast with the computer desks and techno equipment.

at night when we open the windows and i´m lying in the semi dark of the city lights, my feeling of my surrounding is the most profound.
In the past i would have tried to get away from the car noises, the voices, the music in the streets and i would have been in a battle against my surrounding constantly ( and would have failed anyway)
Now i find my attitude is completely different. I can´t filter the noise the way Esther can, i always hear everything and i hear everything very loudly and as if it happens in a space that is me also, but the difference is that i don´t fight it any longer. It´s loud, yes, I become part of the loudness, i become part of the city, i become part of the streets and the steps in the dark. In a way i dissolve. In a way i drown. But i learn to even enjoy it.