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Half Empty or Half Full

2008-05-10T13:00:48Z

Do we risk it all or make a fresh break? Do you follow your heart or follow your rational thoughts? Do we dive in blindly with the ever-beckoning worry of possible failure, or do we stay safely out of the way of harm – but with the past looming just above our heads? For too long now, the inner walls of my head have been plagued with the realization that sometimes there just isn’t enough time in the world to answer these questions. Restless anxiety is surging through my veins and I can’t seem to sit still. I feel removed from reality and trapped somewhere in the past. Memories flood my eyes, and I watch all of these events play out again and again. Somehow I can’t grasp what seems to be sitting right in front of me, but as the seconds tick away I begin to crack these empty shells and clear them away. My ears force out all sounds aside from the echoing thunder of my heartbeat. Expression seems utterly useless, for there is no real way to convey all of these thoughts in plain light. Thus, bathed in the shadows we’ll keep on marching to the deafening orchestra comprised of our love. It’s too early to remember and far too late to forget. I can only hope that clarity is somewhere around the corner, and that when I se it I’ll be able to trust myself enough to grab it. Tunes: Death Cab for Cutie - Marching Bands of Manhattan

Daddy's Rich & Mama's Good Lookin'

2008-05-09T12:09:08Z

Days keep flying by and it’s time to do something about all of this. What I once fondly referred to as “the blur” seems to be turning into a complete mess of minutes and God only knows what the hell else we’ve done. Everything is about to change intensely and there’s no such thing as being ready for change. The last two weeks have been hectic to say the least, and with real life pulling itself closer and closer, I know that it’s time to reevaluate everything that’s been going on. I’m tired of waking up and waiting for things to happen so let’s go right ahead and jump on the bandwagon, shall we? License. GED. Europe. The plan, Stan. Everyone who’s been sticking to their guns and firing away on my side of the war, you’ll never know how much you’re loved. Work at 9am on Thursday, goodbye free time. Tunes: Cheap Trick – Surrender

Vienna Waits For You

2008-05-08T22:35:13Z

“Show me, show me, show me how you do that trick! The one that makes me scream,” she said, “the one that makes me laugh.” She said, and threw her arms around my neck. “Show me how you do it and I promise you I’ll promise that I’ll run away with you.” Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face, I kissed her head. I dreamed of all the different ways I had to make her glow. “Why are you so far away?” she said, “Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you, that I’m in love with you.” You, soft and only. You, lost and lonely. You, strange as angels dancing in the deepest ocean. Existing in the water, you’re just like a dream. You’re just like a dream. Daylight whipped me into shape; I must have been asleep for days. And moving lips to breathe her name, I opened up my eyes. I found myself alone, alone, alone above a raging sea that stole the only girl I loved and drowned her deep inside of me. You, soft and only. You, lost and lonely. You, just like heaven, you. Tunes: The Cure - Just Like Heaven

Safe In Your Seas

2008-05-08T22:29:42Z

I listened in, yes I'm guilty of this, you should know this. I broke down and wrote you back before you had a chance to. Forget forgotten, I am moving past this, giving notice. I have to go, yes I know the feeling, know you're leaving. Calm down, I'm calling you to say I'm capsized, erring on the edge of safe. Calm down, I'm calling back to say I'm home now and coming around, I'm coming around. Nobody likes to but I really like to cry. Nobody likes me, maybe if I cry. Spelled out your name and lists the reasons. Faint of heart don't call me back. I imagine you and I was distant not insistent. I followed suit and laid out on my back, imagine that. A million hours left to think of you and think of that. Tunes: Tegan & Sara - The Con

Kathryn Longest

2008-05-09T11:54:29Z

Hap birth my lil' bebe gurl.

Jack Attack

2008-05-09T11:37:03Z

Happy birthing day my lovely Jackie.

Hanging Around

2008-05-02T15:47:14Z

Worst. Hangover. Ever. Tunes: The ambient sound of the fan.

19th Floor Views Vol. 2

2008-04-24T15:56:12Z

Will You Marry Me?

2008-04-24T16:06:00Z

1/10th of a Decade

2008-04-19T18:29:37Z

And I still get butterflies. Tunes: Little Birdy - Tonight's the Night