After 7 years of separation, and 17 years of a relationship, I signed my divorce papers today. At times it was bitter and horrible, it changed me as a person, questioning my understanding of what Love actually is - is it forever ? -
but the relationship did produce our two wonderful children , Ella and Louis - and re-awoke my love of photography, without the separation my photography would have continued to remain dormant - the loneliness and pain of the breakdown, drove me to photograph and opened up my creativity - today i can talk to my ex-wife, Nic , and can say that I have at least loved once - it was an intense relationship, between 2 emotional and creative beings , which was perhaps doomed to end - I still count Nic as a friend, and wonder will i ever love anyone as intensely again ...

Let's move forward, life constantly changes is all I know for certain ...

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Barry, it sounds from your post as though you have come through the worst of a dreadful process, and you can now forget the anger and bitterness, and keep the happy memories. Its an awful process to go through, and some people hang on to the negative side for ever, so congratulations on going through it and surviving. SADHYA · 2010-04-22: 01:56

There are so many people in this world who never experienced love...and you did...and you have two wonderful children...count your blessings! All the best to you! Eiram · 2010-04-22: 17:41

Deep words and touching post. Thanks for sharing this deep document and inspire us as the master and human you are dear and gentle friend. Best Regards! davidcardona · 2010-06-28: 13:21