Protracted Suicide

by Edgar Baird February. 24, 2010 6813 views

I was once a smoker. I know what it's like to have an invisible force pulling me aside every 25 minutes to be “comforted.” I know what it means to be an addict, to be controlled.

Today I am 848 days smoke free. I like what I see from this vantage point. Sure there are obstacles to overcome from here, but I'm able to succeed by my own means. I no longer need the crutch of nicotine to encourage or support me.

Shooting this set was not difficult at all actually-it reeked like hell, but it was not difficult. In fact, I'd be willing to say that it has, if anything, re-enforced my position as a nonsmoker. It's just not going to be a part of me anymore, no matter what.

If anyone is thinking about quitting or has tried to quit but didn't succeed, I know a great place that is populated with people that completely understand where you're at and where you want to be. It's a special place that I affectionately call QUITSVILLE!! [] Just click on the caps and take a gander. Who knows, you could quite possibly stumble upon the “best” of your life.

Cowboy killers

This person had surgery 2 years ago to remove half of a cancerous lung.

coffin nails.

Feeding the demon

Seeds of Destruction.

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Nikkini 10 years, 2 months ago

I've thought about a similar post, but I since I am around many people who smoke on a regular basis, I haven't had the opportunity. Even given the opportunity, there is nothing like a testimony and you have that. Congratulations on you accomplishment. I have forwarded your post over to my dad in hopes that he will see something here and click the link and begin his journey... to quit... again.

As horrible as it (smoking) is, this is still indeed a good set of photos with powerful words behind it.

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Irishjules 10 years, 2 months ago

Okay - I looked - I smoke :-( Have opened the link - so maybe today is a good day to stop - thanks for this :-)

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Ray King 10 years, 2 months ago

oh. I remember my love affair. Nice set.

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Brenda Mallard 10 years, 3 months ago

9 months and 3 days smoke free here. I tried and tried to quit over a 40 yr stretch and a little blue pill finally pulled me from the clutches of that nasty habit. Thank God! This is a great set of photos and each one speaks volumes!

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Levonthelights 10 years, 3 months ago

Great post! My grandma died of emphysema and was a chain smoker even while on oxygen the last few years of her life. After seeing that as a kid I vowed to never take a puff of a cigarette. It's great you broke free of this addiction. I wish they would ban it in the U.S. The biggest problem I have with this is the second hand smoke. I can be in my car, walking in the parking lot, at the beach, a park or even my house and inhale stray cigarette smoke! I think it's irresponsible for anyone to smoke anywhere but their home when innocent bystanders are dying because of inhaling their addiction. This is one thing in life where if you quit you're a winner!

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Soubhagya Sagar Behera 10 years, 3 months ago

Nice man! Never smoked.., nor shall ever! I cannot stand passive smoke also and am a constant controlling factor in asking people smoking in a crowd to put it out! You could join in anytime!
But my friend.., one thing do remember, if someone dont wanna stop they never will!

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Agnes Felber 10 years, 3 months ago

We must have quit around the same time, Edgar, though I am not counting...I was not nearly strong enough by myself, but the first Chantix I took switched something off in my brain, it was like I never knew the sensation of smoking...I had nightmares though, vivid and horrific ones, which I regret not writing down and selling as script to horror film makers, but I quit.

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Mvjank 10 years, 3 months ago

It astounds me how many people would rather continue to smoke despite the multiple health problems they often face as a direct result. Pehaps it bothers me so much more because I am a social worker at a cancer hospital. It saddens me that so many people go through harsh treatments to get well, but turn right back to the things that caused it. A huge congratulations to you for being strong enough to quit!

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Chris 10 years, 3 months ago

First of all the photographic quality of the pics is tremendous. #1 looks so real. I did know you were a fellow "quitsville" member. You're ahead of me as I'm 807 days today and Marlboro Reds were my brand. I used to think I loved em...Now I love not being chained to my addiction. GREAT post Edgar!

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Mariez 10 years, 3 months ago

I like the angle you took to take #1, very good!

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Joanne 10 years, 3 months ago

CONGRATULATIONS!!! GOOD FOR YOU FOR QUITTING!!! it is SUCH a huge accomplishment!!!! smoking is SOOOO FREAKING NASTY!!! :)

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Sgabriele 10 years, 3 months ago

The last photo actually made my stomach turn ...bleck!!!
Thanks Edgar.

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Brenda Nelson 10 years, 3 months ago

You may never know the good you did today, Edgar. Your story will help many who are still struggling.

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Dorothe 10 years, 3 months ago

Congratulations, Edgar! Great set!

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Ricardo 10 years, 3 months ago

now edgar you made me remember the comment you made long time ago on my post about smoking!
I'm proud of you of quitiing smoking. 80 % of my friends smoke, and I'm very sad because they dont want to quite.. i just hope they wont regret later...

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Larry Nelson 10 years, 3 months ago

Outstanding post and testimonial! Every word of encouragement you spoke is absolutely true. I smoked Marlboro red for 30 years, two packs a day, before I stopped in 1992. Now I help teach smoking cessation classes, and it is really rewarding to help people through a difficult time physically and emotionally - but it is one of the best commitments they will EVER make, and they are so proud when they stop being a slave to their need for nicotine.
Hang in there! You are a positive influence to your friends, and that is being a true friend!
My wife (djnana) said she was proud of you, and would comment later.

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