This is me. I decided earlier today that I was going to take a self portrait. However I got busy and didn't get to take one until right now, right before bed. It's a photo with the long days makeup, my stress filled eyes and strained look in my forced half smile.
It somewhat saddens me to look at this photo. I feel like this isn't me. For one, I never wear my hair like this. I have naturally curly thick hair that is usually highly unmanageable. With stress and hormones out of wack my skin is less than perfect, so I covered up with some post editing some, but its still there.This is new to me so I feel so uncomfortable in my skin. My eyes are puffy and blood shot, and you wouldn't guess it but my lip has a numb sort of twitch to it as a weird side effect to some medication I take.
So here today on day 54, February 23, 2017, I am taking this self portrait. A tired, stressed, over done, 26 year old woman, that has her own struggles just like you, and just like a stranger passing on a street. This doesn't make me desperate, it doesn't mean I have a terrible life, in fact I have a pretty good life. It just means that today right now that this moment I am feeling stressed and hopeful for a positive future.
The great thing about photography is that 10 people can view a photo, and all 10 of those people could see different things. This is what I see in this particular photo tonight.