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by Alexandra Pechabadens September. 01, 2017 800 views

Stop telling me lies

Of sourness and Sorrow

Stop hitting my trail

With your sad pointy shoes

Invoque l'amitie
in the name of your care
and your hurt feelings
Your sadness growing up

Was just like mine
We are soul mates
forever linked
be with me
for we belong

in each otherForever

I will portray for you
The darkest places I can remember
So you will love me
So you will care
You will call them beautiful
And hold me in your arms

Make them your trade
Make them your love
Make them your life

[...]
——
Only when he dies
I can move on
Only when he leaves
I can take the lead of my life
Decide what I want from it
And move, away from all this
hurt
All those shit people
All those fucking racists
[Like me]
All those narrow people
who haven't lived
Who have not lived hurt, ever
Nor loss
Nor darkness
nor those places
because they hide

[...]
They can't understand.

——

Angry, oh Angry oh feeling
Return Home, to me, who writes
I do not blame you, nor do you blame me
For expressing this wrongly seen, kudos life

I am hard, I fuck, yes, I do

I fuck it up so you will go
So I can be free from the hurt
Of your imminent leaving
[...]
I am nothing to you
Just a disappointment, like the others
I have failed
To keep your promise
To make you feel safe
And held
Somewhere , where, you belonged
Once

Till I decided
It was time
To run away
Once more


As I look at myself
I see all I have lost
On purpose
yearning for the
mourning, in advance...


For you would have ... one day.... gone

Before me

I wish that day never came

so I will make it that way.





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Alexandra Pechabadens 3 years, 1 month ago

and keep you away

so i can be

in this place, I know so well

where it is sad, but...safe.

3 years, 1 month ago Edited
Alexandra Pechabadens Replied to Alexandra Pechabadens 3 years, 1 month ago

where the fucking Past, wins, like it has always done

3 years, 1 month ago Edited
Alexandra Pechabadens 3 years, 1 month ago

it's shit

3 years, 1 month ago Edited
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