Frail Stomach

by Alexandra Pechabadens September. 04, 2017 1086 views

Why is the past
Always in the moment
With me
Its tides

Back there
back to the place
Where I ran away
thinking I was safe
yes, safe
Yet, loveliess
Sad Wolf
Knows better
Does he?

Sick he was
To feed his young
It was meant to be
however Yellow Dock
Knew best and said
'No more'
three times


Listen to me
I am your past
I am your present
I will be your future
For you will let me
Reign, in you
Reign, for you, my slave
Reign, believe the tales
which kept you safe
And powerless

Believe me, or 
you will be nothing
Nobody did bad
Except for you
Impure-born soul
Sinner you were
You looked for it
You wanted it
He did it
You the sinner
Born to be 
Object to me
Your saviour

I am our saviour
Remember that
Without me
you are nothing
Listen to me
I am your box, 
your left brain
I am all you need 
You need not Else
You need not Illusions
From above
It's all shite
We know it
It does not exist,

any of it

None of the beauty
You experienced
Was real
All that is real is me
And you will play me
again and again
Leave me free will 
I am your will, you are NOT
and, and or, you will die. 

I am scared, so I control, you
Of course you have other choices
But I will not help you find them
I will get in your way
You always come back to me
Always back to me
Your Pillar

Because I AM
and Poor
In the heart
It's how I remain
I will drag you with me
It's where you belong

You are hurting
Your stomach twisted
from the remembering 
what you've just done
Bad, bad person
Of course you're bad
And I made you do it
I am omnipresent
Don't send me to sleep
Even there, I will control
I can invade, have it all
for myself
let very little
come to you
Of that truth 
that you are 
Yearning for.

Let me be YOU are
I am YOU
I am your PAST
You nothing else
Lose hope no
not till I have had my power
In this WORLD

and had your life. 

If I disintegrate
I will be great and d is locat ed
take you me with

the in depths t h e of Madness
It is I

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Alexandra Pechabadens 3 years, 1 month ago

In search of balance....

3 years, 1 month ago Edited