A Different Look
by
Jada Wong
As I look in the mirror, all I see is someone trying to be what the world wants me to be.
I can not reveal my true self or reveal my true feelings without the fear of being reprimanded.
Sometimes when I go out I sense that others do not feel comfortable around me.
I do not know if it is because I look different or if it is because I sound different.
At times I feel ostracized and kept away from many of the intimate joys that people share with each other.
Intimacy is not easy for me. I fear that I will be emotionally crucified.
I get tired of all the games people play.
“Yes” means ‘no’ and ‘no’ means “NO” and “maybe” means nothing.
Many times I feel like crying or screaming out for solitude even when I am in a crowd.
The world will never accept me.
Sometimes I judge myself harshly because I do not feel I measure up to the world's beauty standards.
Sometimes I wish I looked different so people can find me attractive.
The beauty standards tell me that I look odd.
But in all of my heart's desire I know I am beautiful.
♫♫ YOU'RE NO DIFFERENT - OZZY OSBOURNE ♫♫ [youtube.com]
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