Hey Guys,
This is me, setting up my blog so that I can share my adventures with all my friends. I just bought my train passes...$1,800 dollars later I am that much closer to being able to see more of the world. The tantalizing fingers of anticipation are starting to niggle at the back of my mind. A much more demanding feeling, that I was not expecting (and doing my best to ignore), is the fear. This is my life long dream. I never expected to be terrified of accomplishing it. I suppose there are a few different things that scare me; the biggest one being change. Change is nearly always uncomfortable. This trip is the first thing that I am doing all on my own. I'm paying for it out my pocket, I'm going alone, I'm carrying everything on my back, this is all me; I am going to be a different person when I get back. This is what they call a life changing experience, but I've just gotten to know myself in the past couple years; now I'm going change? That scares me. My life may not be perfect right now, but I am comfortable in it. I know what to expect and how to handle. I like to pretend that I am adventurous but the truth is, I like to be comfortable. I guess that's the human in me coming out haha. The thing is, the reasons I'm scared are the very reasons I'm going. I'm going to learn more about myself than I ever could here. I'm going to challenge myself, to push myself to the limit. I'm going to expand my horizons, to experience cultures and people in a way that is simply not possible here. I want to grow. I may be comfortable right now, and loathe to lose that comfort, but I can feel the subtle push for bigger things. I want more in life. I'm going to reach out and grab it with two hands. This is the first step in molding my world.
With change & a little fear comes lots of growth! You can do this!!