A beautiful place but so much darkness surrounds it. This is the Inca bridge or otherwise known as "Suicide Bridge". There are so many suicides that happen at this bridge. On average there are 25 deaths a year and most of them happen during fiestas or celebrations when people are drunk and depressed in life and they have no hope but the Word of God says in Hebrews 6:19-20 "We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek." It is a 25 meter (or 82 feet) drop down to the bottom of the river. When I was talking with a local policeman (who you can see standing on the right of the photos) he said that there is a 24-hour watch at the bridge and there are at least 2 or 3 policemen there during celebrations. He was also saying that 95 percent of the time when people jump and they go to retrieve the body it is hard to identify who they are because their faces and are destroyed. The policeman said it takes a few days to identify them if they don’t have their license on them and then they have to talk to the family. Imagine having to be the person who has to talk to the family about their loved one who just killed themselves, I couldn't do it. The most recent death was on October 10th of this year of a 35-year-old man who jumped. Living here in Peru for the first time was a lot. I was in a depression and I had suicidal thoughts but then I had a change of mind because of Jesus, He gave me hope and showed me that there is a purpose to my life. I know suicide is a hard thing to talk about and it's good to bring awareness about suicide but so many people don’t know how to stop someone from committing suicide. They put them with a therapist or on medication which sure can help but it's a temporary fix that's why God gave us pastors who can help you and His Word that can show that is there is hope. If you cry out to Him in your darkest times he will hear you and save you from your brokenness, there is freedom in Jesus, and with the power of God you can overcome anything including suicide, just like it says in Psalms 34:17-20, "The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken." So God will rescue you from the darkness, he did it with me in my darkest time. During my depression here in Chivay, I was missing my friends in the United States, I couldn't speak Spanish, and I wasn’t doing well spiritually. I felt like there was nothing worth living for. I tried 3 different times trying to take my life but each time God would stop me and I knew it was God and His Holy Spirit who did it. That still small voice in my head would ask me "Jewels why are you doing this? This won't fix things, there's another way. Think about what you would be doing to all those who love you: your parents, pastors, friends, family, and your best friend." I would just sit there and cry and never do anything to myself, after the third time trying I broke down and gave in to what the Lord had for me and my life. I never told anyone that I got to this point in my life in 2018 until July of this year. Isaiah 44:22 says "I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you." Now I am in a better place and I have Jesus at the center of my life. He has delivered me from suicide and he has protected me from those thoughts because since then I haven't had a thought to take my life. I know you can overcome it in your life if this is something that you struggle with. Cry out to Jesus to help you. Jesus is always by your side in your darkest times and I promise he will set you free. There is hope in every part of the darkness that you can make it out with help, if I can do it then so can you. I believe in Jesus and He believes in you. Trust Him and call on His name!
Yours truly, Jewels
Go to your parents for help. Your pastors for Biblical help. And pray to God for help