Summer Storm and Solstice

by Lee Santiva June. 21, 2020 242 views
Storm clouds on the horizon - b&w

Storm clouds on the horizon - b&w

The aftermath of a terrible thunderstorm triggered the chain of events which culminated in my father passing away today. The events of the last four weeks were as dramatic as the skies in these photos.

Storm clouds on the horizon - color

Storm clouds on the horizon - color

When you see dark storm clouds like in photos #1 & #2 coming at you, you know you are in for rough weather with heavy rain and destruction.

When a loved one is seriously ill and dying, you also know you are in for stormy emotional times. Our rational, analytical minds crave tools to help us control situations and give us a feeling of security. Fate (like Corona) reminds us how little control and security there is in life.

The loss of a parent during times of Corona is particularly difficult because I, like so many other people, am not able to participate in the rituals like a wake, a memorial service, funeral, burial etc all of which can help a person to process the loss.

Young tree and approaching storm - color

Young tree and approaching storm - color

I am alone with my grief, unable to say "goodbye" and unable to mourn together with my family like this lone tree in an empty field.

I could not travel to see him right after the accident despite having a plane ticket because the flight got cancelled due to Corona. Now and in the foreseeable future, I cannot travel for his funeral / burial nor to manage his affairs. In fact, I have no idea when travel to the US will be possible because the travel ban got extended indefinitely.

Red poppies against a dark and stormy sky

Red poppies against a dark and stormy sky

Today my father passed away, peacefully in his sleep.

Today is also the summer solstice and I noticed for the first time that the setting sun is perfectly aligned with the middle of our street, an effect similar to famous solstice sunrise at Stonehenge.

Summer Solstice Sunset

Summer Solstice Sunset

It's a beautiful ending to his long (92 years) and well-lived life. I'll miss you Dad.

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Benny Law 5 months, 1 week ago

When I saw the title of this post, I had no idea what was coming. I feel so sorry for your loss and the difficult circumstances you are under. In stormy times like this, when we are reminded of how fragile and fleeting our life on earth really is, and ponder on the eternal meaning of life, may we find true comfort and hope in our Creator and Saviour.

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Lee Santiva Replied to Benny Law 5 months, 1 week ago

Thank you Benny for your inspiring words. I appreciate you taking the time to comment. At first I didn‘t want to blog about something so painful and personal but it was cathartic.

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Camellia Staab 5 months, 1 week ago

I am so sorry to read this post, not because it is beautifully written and presented with gorgeous photos, but because of the passing of your father at a time with all these restrictions. My deepest condolences to you and your family, Lee.

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Lee Santiva Replied to Camellia Staab 5 months, 1 week ago

Thank you Camellia for your kind words of sympathy and also about the photos. 
In the past weeks and months worry and other emotions dominated so much that I felt like I couldn‘t capture anything anymore or didn‘t feel any joy in the process, thus it is really encouraging to me that something came from the few photo sessions I had done.

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Antonio Gil 5 months, 1 week ago

My deepest sympathy Lee. Hard times these we are living in

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Lee Santiva Replied to Antonio Gil 5 months, 1 week ago

Thank you for your sympathies

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Berckmans Peter 5 months, 1 week ago

I feel for you. Losing a loved one in these times is hard. And if there is an ocean between you it is even harder. The photos are a good representation of dark times. Hope you can visit your father soon to pay your respects. Hang in there

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Lee Santiva Replied to Berckmans Peter 5 months, 1 week ago

Thank you Peter for your kind words!

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