by Mawey February. 18, 2012 3620 views

on my cold bed of shame, throwing myself around in the midst of moan and screams, i had another dream. it made me wake up with a catatonic serenity, a stillness in my heart making me doubt i had one at all.

i was in the cold of a frozen lake. slow but steadily sliding on the ice, my feet bound into skating shoes that i was unable to lift, my body straightened balancing on two stiffened legs, gliding away with no hook for the eye to hold on and break.

a relentless force pushed me towards the border where the ice ended and the unfrozen, black water awaited my splash. i did not know what propelled me, the ground was even and smooth, i looked around and saw nothing but endless ice, except for the direction i was destined to reach.

i heard myself counting, the numbers like seconds, to measure the distance and speed that i rolled, yet when i thought i'd reach the abyss and fall any moment, it was still enough time for another round of despair, as if some evil, unintelligent god had decided to make a laugh out of my fear.

and while i was gliding, speechless and confused, knowing my path and how it would end, i suddenly noticed what i had overlooked before, that in the ice there was a net of red lines, interconnected in regular spaces and forming patterns that seemed impossibly complex, and yet these lines seemed to mean something i could not decipher but which i knew would safe me from drowning at the end of my slide.

i awoke to a slush of foul water thrown into my face, before i fell, before i found meaning, before i despaired. if only i knew what this dream meant to me.

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Jane 7 years, 6 months ago

globetrotdreamer says it for me again!
catatonic serenity - i want some of that.

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Amanda-Jane Terlesky 7 years, 6 months ago

I absolutely *love* this, the words and the shot. Brilliant.

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Olivia 7 years, 6 months ago

I like the first one shot!

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Antonio Gil 7 years, 7 months ago

After what Rachel said about your post, I rest my case.

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Lyency 7 years, 7 months ago

the story hooked on the perfectly woven net of words fits nicely to the dream of the masterfully photographed net of red lines

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Rachel Mvm 7 years, 7 months ago

Maybe Carl Jung can interpret this lucid dream!
Fantastic image; very neat perspective. as for the narrative, well-done! Long sentences that didn't make me feel caught in a web of confusion! Masterful use of commas deserve praise from Lynne Truss (Eats, Shoots, and Leaves). Dynamic word choice. and 'catatonic serenety'; 'no hook for the eye to hold on...' were some snippets I particularly liked! :D

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Eric 7 years, 7 months ago

really nice set of photos :)

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Patricia Gonzales 7 years, 7 months ago

Great angles, clarity and macro shots~

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