Self-Portraits

by Rachel The Introvert January. 11, 2019 531 views

One of my goals this year is to get better at self portraits. And I'm not talking about selfies with a phone. But being able to be in front of a camera without cringing. For too long I've hated to see myself on the other side of the lens. How ironic is it that I got into photography largely because I hated being in pictures?! I was filled with sadness when going through my albums this year at the empty spots among out family outings, adventures... if someone on the outside was going through my pictures it would be hard to tell I was involved at all. This especially stung since I have children. I realize and recognize that I am unhappy with things in my life and about me right now but even if there is room for change I can still learn to love myself even while changing those things I dislike. Part of my challenge this year was to learn to love myself and be more transparent... I've been trying to get on the other side of the lens at least once a week.

I think this is one of my favorite portraits of myself far because my daughter is in the room with me. I was laughing with her and let my guard down. It was more of a natural me vs what I was trying to force... Maybe trying too hard is just as bad as not trying at all....

BW version

Color version

I have a hard time talking about things like this on my other social media platforms... I guess thats why I have come to love Photoblog. I can be a flower on the wall, nobody knows me! There is some freedom in that...

I do hope to see changes in me by next year. And self acceptance is a big part of that...

Here is something I am more comfortable photographing... light and nature.

My happy place <3

Following the next beautiful road to the next place with no mirror in sight lol.

Thanks for listening to my rambles...

xx

Rachel

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Jean-Michel Laurenti 6 months, 1 week ago

Hi Rachel, it's usually not easy for a photographer to be on the other side of the viewfinder.
I do think that Photoblog is a bit special, as it allows us to have words along with our images, with a simple layout that helps focusing and going deeper. No doubt you know how to use the photography language to share emotions...
Thanks for sharing !

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Pete Fitzgetald 6 months, 1 week ago

Great photos love the landscape and the blur on the grass with the sunlight, and great self portraits... well done

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Kenny H 6 months, 1 week ago

I love your B&W selfie.
Shot four is excellent, BTW.

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Rachel The Introvert Replied to Kenny H 6 months, 1 week ago

Thanks Kenny! So glad you like them both!smile

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Will Neville 6 months, 1 week ago

Nice pictures Rachel..Well at least you smile in your Selfies lol. This inspires me to open up a little more in mine smile

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Will Neville 6 months, 1 week ago

Thanks Will! I have a hard time smiling for selfies lol! What is up with that?! I feel like I look fake but I think that goes with selfies and staring at yourself. In front of a lens it’s different if I can just relax and forget about it and I’m not staring at my own goofy face 😂

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Russell Smith 6 months, 1 week ago

Great job on the self portrait and the landscape too :)

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Russell Smith 6 months, 1 week ago

Much appreciated Russell!☺️

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Lynn F Medley 6 months, 1 week ago

I really like your story. And your self portraits, Beam!  I too feel much more comfortable on this platform so glad to be a part of it.

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Lynn F Medley 6 months, 1 week ago

Thank you for your kind comment Lynn! I am so glad I’ve discovered this community. I have so enjoyed being here ❤️

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Andi Saw 6 months, 1 week ago

Girl, you're gorgeous!

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Andi Saw 6 months, 1 week ago

Why thank you very much Andiiiiiii😍

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D Vgz 6 months, 1 week ago

Beautiful pictures! Both landscapes and self portraits. I hope you'll keep sharing them here. Great inspiration!

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Rachel The Introvert Replied to D Vgz 6 months, 1 week ago

Thank you very much! I’m glad you enjoyed them. I appreciate you stopping by ❤️

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Björn Roose 6 months, 1 week ago

Damn ... I'm jealous now. I knew you were great at landscape photography already, but calling yourself "introvert" and doing a fantastic self portrait like that ... If your photography or your face were to be amongst the things you're unhappy with in your life, you would be very wrong smile
That said, I don't do self portraits unless I would be forced to and whenever I realise that somebody is pointing a camera at me I stick out my tongue or start acting silly. Only exception to that rule is my girlfriend: I got used to her drawing my portrait, so she can make a decent photo of me smile

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Andi Saw Replied to Björn Roose 6 months, 1 week ago

I'd love to see the drawing!

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Björn Roose Replied to Andi Saw 6 months, 1 week ago

I'm sure you'll find one somewhere on her site (https://tussendelijntjes.blogspot.com/), but I'm to lazy to look it up smile

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Andi Saw Replied to Björn Roose 6 months, 1 week ago

Thank you. 
She's good! I like her work! blue heart

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Björn Roose Replied to Andi Saw 6 months, 1 week ago

I'll tell her smile

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Björn Roose 6 months, 1 week ago

Haha! You are funny friend 😀
Wow see I couldn’t do that. That’s amazing both that your girlfriend does portraits of you and that you are vulnerable to allow her to. I think allowing someone to draw you is giving them full interpretation and freedom to create in essence YOU on paper. It’s so intimate. It amazing you have the relationship where this works for you both. And I agree with Andi, I hope you’ll post one someday!

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Björn Roose Replied to Rachel The Introvert 6 months, 1 week ago

As long as I can do something else while posing (like reading a book or working on a computer), she can indeed draw me (I don't like posing). And, since Andi indeed asked the same question, there's several portraits of me on her site ( https://tussendelijntjes.blogspot.com/smile

6 months, 1 week ago Edited
Lisa Britton 6 months, 1 week ago

Wonderful goals, and lucky for us you have chosen to share them here.
I agree with Camellia I am not usually a fan of B&W, in this case the B&W just "speaks" to me. Beautiful portrait.

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Lisa Britton 6 months, 1 week ago

So glad to have everyone’s feedback... the monochrome is for the win! Thank you Lisa for being so friendly and welcoming! ❤️

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Berckmans Peter 6 months, 1 week ago

B&W is my choice. Love the landscapes

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Berckmans Peter 6 months, 1 week ago

Thank you very much friend!

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Camellia 6 months, 1 week ago

All of them outstanding photos! 
I am not a huge fan of b&w  although I force myself to create black and white photos. I must say I really really like the b&w photo of you. It's sharp it's clear and automatically draws one's eyes to your eyes (very pretty eyes). That's not to say that the colored one is not nice, but the colored one has too many distractions, if that makes sense.  Anyway you definitely need to take more self portraits, very pretty lady smile

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Camellia 6 months, 1 week ago

You are so kind Camellia! Thank you for the feedback and kind encouragement❤️ So greatly appreciate your visits and support 😍

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Antonio Gil 6 months, 1 week ago

Although I like the two portraits I prefer the B&W (don't ask me why). Your landscapes are always amazing my friend

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Rachel The Introvert Replied to Antonio Gil 6 months, 1 week ago

Thank you  Antonio, glad to know it. Very appreciative of your kind feedback and support! 😊

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