by Sherry Hill May. 06, 2019 317 views
[foggy backyard]

[foggy backyard]

you know that feeling [or rather i hope you don't] when you wake up in the morning and it feels like a normal morning.. and then your thoughts shift and you remember.. remember that you have this thing that weighs you down.. you lie there, defeated as your spine slackens back into the mattress and all the air escapes your lungs..

and then you turn your head to the left and the sleeping form of the fella pulls your fingers from your clenched belly as they can't stay inert and keep on keeping on too..

and you take a deep breath and know that because of him, you will rise up..

and you dislodge yourself from the wallowing and sit on the edge of the bed, looking out the open window and you know it was the wrens that woke you.. how so much voice comes out of such a diminutive body.. they rise up and they scream it in your face..

so you pull your own diminutive body from the bed.. if the wrens can rise, so can you..

[the six acres woods]

[the six acres woods]

you quietly click the door behind you as you head outside.. to rejuvenate.. to mend.. then something that borders on spiritual happens.. in the quiet comes a thundering.. in the fog you can't see until the shapes of deer rushing down on you makes your breath stop.. in the still of the morning, their hooves shake the earth beneath your feet..

you spend some time in nature.. you decide to take your own advice and chose to see more beauty than bother.. you feel your spirit swell with the bird song and the crunch of dried leaves beneath your feet.. you are amazed to find that spring has come without you even noticing..

then a gunshot breaks into your thoughts.. and another gunshot.. you can see thru the trees as a state trooper pulls away from your sacred spaces.. you follow the fresh deer tracks in the opposite direction up your driveway to find one of your fawns dead in your ditch..

my heart cracks in two as i kneel down.. mourn the little lost one.. and i rise up..

[foggy morning]

[foggy morning]

[update edit: i can only assume that someone hit the fawn in a car and the police were putting it out of its misery.. at least this is what i hope]

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Camellia Staab 9 months, 3 weeks ago

Stunning captures. Definitely frame worthy.

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David Swatton 9 months, 3 weeks ago

Well, that's started the day off with a melancholy mood... the combination of words and images is quite haunting.

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Russell Smith 9 months, 3 weeks ago

Quite a nice series I am torn in between 1 and 2 as my favorites.

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Pete Fitzgetald 9 months, 3 weeks ago

#1i love them all, but this one would look cool on a wall in a frame

9 months, 3 weeks ago Edited
Sherry Hill Replied to Pete Fitzgetald 9 months, 3 weeks ago

thanks Pete.. i've never framed one of my own photos.. now you have me thinking i will.. :)

9 months, 3 weeks ago Edited
Lynn F Medley 9 months, 3 weeks ago

Such beautiful images!! I too hope putting the little guy out of his misery was the case,,

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Sherry Hill Replied to Lynn F Medley 9 months, 3 weeks ago

thank you Lynn.. i said a little prayer for him..

9 months, 3 weeks ago Edited
Björn Roose 9 months, 3 weeks ago

I know it's not very nice to say one hates people (and there are a number of exceptions), but this kind of stories don't make me love people (again with a few exceptions). As for your feelings about this: they do you credit, Sherry. And despite all this: head back into nature whenever you can. There is life and death, yes, and stupid soldier boys, but it is the origin of our species and the only place where healing is possible.

9 months, 3 weeks ago Edited
Sherry Hill Replied to Björn Roose 9 months, 3 weeks ago

i edited my post, adding that i hope the police were putting an injured animal out of its misery.. animals are such pure spirits, i'm sorry they have to collide with people..

and yes, this is a new day.. another day to find many things to be grateful for..

9 months, 3 weeks ago Edited
Bethany Plonski 9 months, 3 weeks ago

I'm just kind of stunned reading this - makes my heart hurt. Who shoots an animal for no reason and leaves it there? I'm so sorry to hear that. There is something extra special terrible about a fawn, basically a universal symbol of innocence and gentleness, being killed for no apparent reason. And YOUR fawn. I don't know if I'm more angry or sad right now.
It feels like the wrong time to say it considering the heavy context, but your photos are absolutely beautiful.

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Sherry Hill Replied to Bethany Plonski 9 months, 3 weeks ago

it was a sad moment.. and i can only assume someone hit the fawn in a car, perhaps the police were dispatching it from misery.. i sure hope so.. but i don't have much love of the police..

9 months, 3 weeks ago Edited
Bethany Plonski Replied to Sherry Hill 9 months, 3 weeks ago

I hope so too. Either way, it's not an easy thing to witness something like that in person. Hugs!

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Bob Rosenberg 9 months, 3 weeks ago

Whoa.  Why would a state trooper kill a fawn?  Other than that, yours was a very thought inspiring post.   smile

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Sherry Hill Replied to Bob Rosenberg 9 months, 3 weeks ago

perhaps the fawn was injured? struck by a car? i don't know..

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