Dogs are my favourite people.

by Paula Wallis February. 16, 2018 1013 views
The Last Photo I took of Duncan.

The Last Photo I took of Duncan.

Apologies for my absence recently. We lost my sweet boy, Duncan just over a week ago, and the grief is much more complicated than I anticipated. I had thought I was (sort of) ready. He was old (14), wasn't in the best of health, and, when I returned home from a weekend away, wasn't doing well at all. I knew it was time, and thought I was doing the kindest thing I could for my sweet boy.

I just thought it would be such a clear-cut decision that I would walk away from feeling sad, of course, but like I had done the right thing. I didn't expect all the lingering doubt and guilt.

My head knows it was time, but I keep thinking....maybe if we'd tried harder, spent more money, waited a little longer....

We had such a bond, him and I, and it's hard to get used to life without him. I think us pet owners are a special kind of people, opening up our hearts to this despair, over and over again.

This is the last photo I took of Duncan, just a week or so before he left us. If only I'd known. I'd have taken a hundred photos of him. Not that he'd have let me ;-)

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Jill Bahm 3 years, 4 months ago

So sorry for your loss. We lost a sweet little dog about two years ago; she was only 7 and it was completely sudden and heartbreaking. It takes time, but you each day will be better.  Try not to second-guess your decisions about his care - he would not have lived 14 wonderful years with you if you hadn't been a great parent to him. Peace and comfort to you!

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Jill Bahm 3 years, 3 months ago

Thank you so much Jill. It gets a little easier each day, but man, I miss his little face!

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Helen Anders 3 years, 4 months ago

I am so sorry for your loss.  Dogs are such special people and they leave such imprints on our hearts forever. I understand fully the pain you are going through as it will be one year in March that we said goodbye to our beloved boy and I still haven’t gotten used to life without him.  What a handsome boy, your Duncan was!  Take care!

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Helen Anders 3 years, 3 months ago

Thank you Helen. He was the handsomest, indeed! :)

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Heike 3 years, 4 months ago

So sad Paula. cry

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Heike 3 years, 3 months ago

Thank you - it's been a hard thing to get used to :(

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Daanish Farhan 3 years, 4 months ago

😢

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Daanish Farhan 3 years, 3 months ago

Thanks Daanish :(

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Berckmans Peter 3 years, 4 months ago

You love for him will never go away, and yes they are the best people,honest

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Berckmans Peter 3 years, 3 months ago

They are, aren't they?

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Berckmans Peter Replied to Paula Wallis 3 years, 3 months ago

They sure are

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Sigrid Strohschneider-Laue 3 years, 4 months ago

heart broken heart

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Sigrid Strohschneider-Laue 3 years, 3 months ago

Thanks Sigrid <3

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Antonio Gil 3 years, 4 months ago

So sorry Paula.

3 years, 4 months ago Edited
Paula Wallis Replied to Antonio Gil 3 years, 3 months ago

Thank you Antonio :)

3 years, 3 months ago Edited
Andi Saw 3 years, 4 months ago
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Paula Wallis Replied to Andi Saw 3 years, 3 months ago

Thank you so much for your kind words. It's true, he was the most spoiled pup I knew. But he deserved it :)

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