My last meal of 2019 was a crab. Eating crab is a tradition Scoofy and I started a long time ago. Not sure why, or the symbolism or significance behind it. All I know is you don't mess with tradition.
And once again we find ourselves saying hello to a new year, together.
Earlier, before 2019 was over, I did a little reflection. I tweeted the important lessons I learned during the 2019 year:
In 2019 I learned that:
- most of the things I hate about the world or ppl are things I hate about myself
- it’s ok to not be 100%
- deep breathing exercises actually do wonders for mental & emotional health
- it’s usually better to keep your opinions to yourself
- high anxiety causes you to think inwardly and appear selfish. Cut yourself and others some slack
- being reliable is important
- not caring what other ppl think of you is important
I received a lot of private positive feedback from a lot of close friends. This inspired me to continue this personal ritual inside my head as we head into the 2020 year.
But I was exhausted.
The day prior to NYE, I had a really bad sinus pressure headache. We went to Best Buy and bought the new GoPro Hero 8 Black Edition, since we gave away our GoPro Hero 7 to Shibe's Dad. We've never not recorded a NYE party, and thought it would be weird if we did.
Well, in my state of mind, which wasn't 100% due to the headache, I somehow managed to brick the new GoPro during it's update. Shibe stayed up till about 2am trying to fix it, with no luck. We simply knew we were going to end up at Best Buy again the next day to exchange it.
We did end up back at Best Buy. I ended up there three times, that day. It's a painfully long story, so the TLDR is this: Best Buy's app lied to me, Best Buy's call center lied to Scoofy, and local Best Buy employees seemed to not give a shit (except for the last lady that helped us, she really went out of her way, which was really nice).
This is why I order stuff online.
We did end up getting the camera exchanged for a new one. This time, we didn't brick it during updates. And everything turned out fine in the end.
Even though everything turned out, it still doesn't change the fact that mentally, my brain still felt like it was hanging by only threads of whatever emotional sanity I had left. This is due in large to the amount of socialization that I had been involved with the past few weeks. Not only did we have the Christmas holiday, we had other social days in between. Not that I don't like hanging out with my friends. I just need time to recharge my batteries, and I was barely getting that.
So I went into the New Year's' Eve party, double dosing on CBD, chugging lots of water, and doing my very best at being a good party host.
I survived because of my amazing husband.
But I'm proud of myself. Old me would have panicked with irritation to everyone and everything around me. But I didn't. I took deep breaths, and enjoyed the moment.
In fact, I enjoyed it so much I nearly forgot I was supposed to take a ton of photos again but that's okay. I covered the important parts.
Some of the photos I took were out of focus. That is mostly due to the fact that I have been out of practice and forgot a few key things during the set up process. That's okay though, at least we recorded everything with the GoPro!
I also forgot to use a my wide angle lens for the light writing photo. Whoops!
A mistake I will have to remember for next year, ha!
I love these guys. They're not related to me by blood (except for Scoofy) but they might as well be. They are my family. I'm so thankful to have them in my life.
Not all of them are pictured here. Some couldn't be in town. Others just couldn't make it. And well...we need a bigger house so we can have more friends over. <3
I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year. I hope that your experiences this year are filled with support and love! I hope you find your strength and grow and achieve, and make the most of the 2020 year.
I personally look forward to what this new year will bring.
Let's go, 2020!